Anyway so yea when I came home, I was dead tired because of one simple reason, I slept for only 5 hours last night!! AHHHH!! I slept at 11+pm but then I woke up at 4 30am. I was supposed to wake up at 6 45am to prepare to go to school but I woke up at 4 30am just to play Flyff for a while until 6am hahaha. I wanted to play because yesterday I bought something in the game that lasted for 1 day period only so I wanted to make full use of it hahahaha , stupid me har? Oh well, I sacrificed my sleep for that waha. I reached home at about 3 30pm and I slept from that time until 7pm I guess? I was really tired but I didn't want to sleep further than 7pm because I need to post ya? YEAH!! Ok, I have nothing much really to post about, I have been staying at home for the past few days just playing Flyff haha. Besides I should play as much as I want because December is coming and that is month that I have to start on my other homework and to study for common test 1 in Term 1 Week 2. Busy month har? But I bet next year will even be more busy since I and the other sec 4s would be preparing for our O'levels examination. I am starting to feel the stress just from saying that haha... ...well it will also be the year which I will be graduating and leave Bukit Panjang Government High School to a Junior College.
Will you guys miss me? Will my juniors or friends forget about me? Haha... ...that is a question that I would want to know the answer but oh well I shall worry about that when I am about to graduate, not now. Now is still the time for me to spend with all my friends right? Haha... ... BUT.. ..we can still meet in Junior College or University if we enter the same one of course... ...furthermore, I may be classmates with this year sec 1 girls in University, who knows? Ok shall not think about that now haha. Back to what I was saying earlier, before I continue my post, I would like to thank someone. Thank You Si Ying for your present/reward/belated birthday present, whatever you want to call it haha!!!
Oh ya I shall make this post a little different from the rest of my posts, you'll see at the last part of this post haha. Ok today I am going to post about "LOVE" wahahaha... ...I got nothing else to talk about so I am just going to talk about that, let me warn you, not all the things I am saying is about me, I am just saying that topic in a general manner. Or you can say most of it is not about me haha...maybe? I won't know until I start talking about it haha because to be honest, up to now, I still have not really think about what to say about "LOVE" LOL!!! Ok never mind, let my hands and mind just guide me as I am talking about it ba...here goes.
Love is strange at times isn't it? There will be a time when you set your eyes on a girl or boy. Before I continue, let me ask you a question. Would you fall for a boy who is popular with the girls or a girl who is popular with the boys? Well the strange part is this, if you would like a person of such popularity with the opposite sex, like any other people who have fallen in love, you would chase after that person, you would chase all the way until you get him or her. But then if you achieve that love, you should be happy wouldn't you? Because you have finally gotten him or her. But then your heart may experiencea pain like an arrow piercing through because that person still has his or her popularity... ...and it hurts when you see him or her being together with other guys of girls. Strange isn't it? Well that is a thing that can never be answered, love just works that way and..
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If you are feeling that way, it would just mean you really love that person because after all, love(as in BGR love), is a 2-people relationship, only one boy and one girl. As love develops and grows stronger, you will tend to be more aware of what your partner is doing. When you see your partner being with another guy or girl, it just feels painful at times because you want your partner only to yourself. Your thinking and mindset will all start to change. At first when you are still chasing after him or her, you know that it is difficult but the jealousy you feel is not strong yet because your mind is just so concentrated on how to get him or her but after doing so, it changes totally.
AHHHHHHH!! I don't know how to continue how? Never mind I think of something else. Hmmm... ...ok never mind I am not good at explaining it, I need a real situation before I can show my skills of love because I am the master of LOVE wahahahaa, since I watch so many romance anime and movies, just kidding hehe. I think I shall just write poems ba.. ..poems poems poems... ..oh yea!!
A poem
I have tried to find the words
To tell you what I feel inside.
The words that will convince you
That what I feel is real.
The words that I tried to find,
are difficult to be expressed.
I know you have been hurt of love,
And I've been wounded too.
But being together we heal the scars
of love which makes us blue.
I has spent time avoiding love
With its anguish and pain,
But since the time I first saw you,
The time my eyes set on you,
I've learnt to love again.
But seeing you with the rest
Can't seem to fill my heart with content.
I tried to run away from love again,
For I am wounded the second time.
The more I run, the more hurt I am.
If you could only see with my eyes,
The beauty you would behold.
And with my heart you'd really know,
The love of which I've told.
I know you feel the same as I,
When in your arms I lie,
I feel the love that is in your heart,
And I'm always yours until I die.
I love you!
Warmth of the heart
Your body feels so warm.
Your body embraces mine.
I could just stay there forever
cuddled into you.
But I was greedy,
I want to tell you my love.
Emotions running wild in my head.
My heart screaming out.
Tell her
Tell her you love her.
It is so hard to try and keep it all together
When I'm in your warm arms.
I never want to let go,
I never thought a simple hug
could have sooooo much feeling.
When you hold me
In a crowded place,
Everyone seem to disappear.
And is just you and me standing there.
Feels like Heaven,
You made all my worries,
all go away,
away from my heart.
My heart is only for your warmth!
The reason I love you so
You wonder why I love you
And start to have doubts
When I pause to answer.
It's not that I making things up,
I know exactly what to say.
To me, it's second nature,
Just like Common Sense.
But the reason I pause,
Is because words don't seem to come out.
When I want to answer,
all of my reasons want to come out at once.
It's like a little race they have,
Of who's to be the first?
Don't question why I love you,
Because I don't want you to doubt my love
And that's more painful than what a bullet
Can do to my heart.
But if you really REALLY wish to find out,
Then okay, I shall tell you.
I know that I really love you,
Because in your arms is where I can really call my home,
When I am in my lowest state of emotion,
When I am so sad, so lonely, so 'far away'
Just your smile brings me back on my feet.
And when we kiss, every single bit of me,
Even the smallest and thinest particle,
Get centered in my heart.
And even though I can't see it,
I feel the fireworks going around us.
That is the reason why I love you,
Don't doubt me again,
Because that reason stays and is what
That keeps me going!
I love you!
Ok that is the end of my poems, enjoy them?? hahahaha!! Now is time for the something different but is just... ..Well see ya guys!!
(This is the something different)
To Sis(Samantha): Hello!! So many days of Band wor!! Didn't get to see you in school today though. Were you in school? Haha. Oh ya this Friday I can't go Youth, I going my cousin(Kenneth)'s house the whole day. Are you going?
To Serena: Hihi!! Hows things going? Good luck with your dance training tommorrow!! Enjoy your last training for the holidays! Haha.
To Si Ying: Yo!! Thanks for your present(reward) again!! I have not removed it yet, wahaha!! My mum also has not seen it. Lol. Have fun in your next year sec 3 class with your new classmates! Haha.
To Marcus Chua: Hey!! Waaa you good hor? Now go overseas already!! I this year not going overseas leh!! AHHHH first time end of year I never go anywhere, not fair!!! Never take me with you!! ARGH!!! Bad Bad!!
To Xin Tong: Ohaiyo!! Long time no chat!! Do you visit my blog often? HMM cause long time no see you tag haha!!
To Joanna: Good evening!! Haha saw you in school today. You got Infocom Club right? I MISS 105!!! Wahahaha!!!
